I could blame myself for the rest of time,
I still constantly think that it is a crime.
You left me with a feeling of extreme guilt,
This life I have now is something I have just built.
You left this life without any warning,
Ever since that moment I've just been mourning.
I've just been filled with so much blame,
Not knowing an end to all this shame.
I have just kept dreaming that I hadn't stopped,
Constantly going back to the that point where I had dropped.
Your memory lingers in my broken and empty heart,
Ever since that day all I've wanted was a fresh start.
Tears flowing down like the rain,
you left me filled with so much pain.
I'm just so sick of pretending,
Always waiting for that ending.
I've been waiting in the dark that you left behind,
Been living in an unsafe state of mind.
Wishing that i could tell you that I love you,
Especially knowing that you loved me too.